Last Year's Boy, New Year

The never ending saga of the lack of boys in my life continues...

So, last year there was this new fraternity starting back on the lovely CSUN campus.  I happen to be in a sorority and was walking by when I saw them and decided to hop in and say hi.

I met this guy who we will refer to as NHR (National Hottie Rep). I immediately thought that he was adorable, and hott, and talked to him and we clicked in convo too.  Amazing right?  Well, anyway we ended up hanging out that evening we went to my place and watched a movie and made plans to meet the next day. Everything was fine and well, or so I thought.  The next day, NHR didn't pick up the phone and missed our plans.  So, I dismissed the whole situation.  I bounced back. 

So, cut to this year... A couple of guys I know just joined the fraternity the NHR is a rep for. I asked about him and they said that he was in town for their rush.  I was excited I wanted to talk to him. After all, we did have good convo it would be nice to see him. Plus, I guess part of me wanted to know what happened. Why he broke our plans.

When I saw him he immediately recognized me and we hugged it was good to talk to him again. And then this other girl came in. It was like they knew each other. Obviously not for that long because he had just come back in town but, it was obvious that  they had been talking. Whatever you know.  But, then I asked him if he wanted to go get coffee or something and he pulled the I'm too busy card.

Well, yesterday evening was the guys last fraternity rush event and I went to say hi to the guys and to be honest was hoping to see NHR.  He was there and so was the girl.  We talked, and, then she pulled the I'm not talking to this other girl act. Even though we have known each other and been on committees with each other. She pulled the girl card. So, I just decided to talk to other people and have fun. And, I was but, I was just trying to figure NHR out. I guess that was my first problem. I shouldn't be figuring out the male species. So, I just left I wasn't going to ponder it anymore. I went to say goodbye to him and that was that.

But, I will always wonder about him because I wonder if that's what he does.  If he goes to the different colleges and just meets different girls for the week and move on.  if he makes every girl feel like I felt when talking to him.

I wonder why the other girl felt she had to pull the girl card with me although we've known each other for awhile. I guess girls will always look out for number one.  And boys too!

So, I am going to start thinking about number one too! And start telling these people when I am hurt because they shouldn't do that. And, no, not everyone is nice.

But, I  have a right to let you know not to treat me a certain way too! And, I think I am going to start implementing that rule in my life.  I have too many boys who walk all over me and it's time for that to stop. So, I'm taking control of my life back.

Some People Never Change...

I have come to the realization in life that people always tend to revert back to their old ways. Sometimes, yes people can change but, most of the time they don't.

So, what do you do when you think that someone who is your friend, or someone who you trust turns their back on you not just once but yet again. Are those unhealthy relationships that you just need to remove from your life?  Do you think that they are worth trying to fix or do you just need to let them go?

What do you do when you have a friend that doesn't support you liking a guy but, in front of you openly supports another girl?  What do you do?

What do you do when they tell you they support you or whatever one minute but, then don't support you the next?

I have a friend like this and all it does is bring me pain and heartbreak every time I see them.

Maybe, it's not worth the friendship, or whatever you would categorize it as.

Every once in awhile you have to think about yourself. So,  I am going to say that maybe its time to remove yourself from them.  It might be hard especially when you have friends that tie you together but, maybe in the end it's better to cut of your ties with talking to that person and what plans you make with them. Yes, you might see them in passing and you don't have to be rude but, you don't have to tell your soul either.

Just a little heart therapy. :-)

Love you! Byeee!